I was talking to another mommy friend last night about the magnitude of motherhood. I have been thinking about this a lot. My girls are with me all day and it seems most days our moods overlap and intertwine. Almost sickly sometimes. I don't feel like I'm able to have a bad day, or even a bad moment for that matter, because it reflects right back to them. If I lose my temper with Boo she loses it and can't recover until I have gone in there. I get so frustrated with her sometimes but there she is screaming at my husband "I want Mommy!!!". I just spend all day with you and then I yelled at you but yet, still, she wants Mommy.
Let's call it the "Mommy Pedestal" - you are put up there each day and no matter how bad you screw up your children still want you, only you. It's a huge responsibility. Sometimes it seems like a burden but I don't want to undermine it with that word. It's a privilege. Even more so if you do a good job.
Some days though, I just want down.
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I know...it's very sweet & sort of sacred. And just something that comes along with becoming Mom I think. But yes, a lot of pressure! I try to remember that our children will remember the impression of us more than the single moments in every day life. Makes me feel better.
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